Blessings…
I am so blessed, i can’t even believe it. God gave me so much when he gave to me my husband, and my children. I couldn’t have asked for anything more in my life. I am so happy and THANKFUL!
Tonight the girls and I prayed at bedtime for all the families at the hospital, the ones that are home without each other and the ones who are counting the days till they see their loved ones again.
God gave me the chance and opportunity and allowed this situation to happen to teach me so many things, and for many other reasons. I would take all of it away from my child, but i wouldn’t change one thing that I have gone thru. I thank you Lord for allowing me to have hard days, to see things that most people couldn’t even imagine, to feel things and loss and sadness in my life to truly appreciate HOW BLESSED I AM!
Tonight we had an odd conversation, the first of many….
Alexis handed me a stocking with her birth year on it 2006. Austin asked “Was that Christmas different?”
I said “VERY! We were apart and Alexis was VERY sick in the hospital”
Alexis: Why was I so sick?
Austin: Because you have cancer!
Alexis looks straight into my eyes with her big baby blues and says “Mommy, is that true? Do I have cancer?”
I paused….thought…. “Well, Alexis I don’t think you do”
And then I ran out of the room to have a good cry, There is nothing to prove that at this point she HAS cancer, she more “doesn’t have cancer” than “does have cancer”. So for now, that is my answer. Merry Christmas to us, we don’t think you do!
Today, I grabbed my purse off the counter, and Austin’s beautiful “state of art” Stained Glass Crystal Hanging painting that she worked so hard on (it was gorgeous) was underneath it and slid right onto a marble floor. CRASH! I started crying, I felt awful, I called Austin into the room and told her the accident that happened and how sorry I was that it was broken and needed to be thrown away. She wrapped her arms around me and said “Mommy it’s okay, I can make another one, don’t worry!”
These are the reasons I am so completely BLESSED, not to mention getting to hug my dream man every night when he comes home from work. I am more in love today than ever before with my dear husband and best friend, and wonderful father. I can’t believe that we’ve been married next month for 13 years! WOW~
Here is a link from our singing at church on Sunday, hope you enjoy it…..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oBBWL586_RA
Austin was a PRO, she didn’t need us up there!
God bless you and yours and MERRY MERRY BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
Happy Birthday JESUS! Can’t wait to be with family!
