January 30, 2009
Hello all who read this, I wanted to share a little about Alexis and her bravery…
She had her immunizations again on Wednesday. I have been very cautious about saying “shot” or “immunization” in front of her, I didn’t want to scare her any earlier than needed. When we pulled into the parking lot of her doctor’s office. She said “Oh, we are at my doctor, I am getting a shot, Mommy, could I please only have one shot? I just want one, OK?” It shocked me, so much for being secretive.
When we got into the room, it was the same room that our dear doctor sat us down and told us (JB, my mother, Austin, and Alexis and I) that she had cancer on August 16th, 2006. We have never been back in this room again. My mom took Austin for a walk, and I sat in the same seat as that day, she sat in the chair that JB was in. We waited together holding hands for the nurses and the shots. I was so overwhelmed with emotion, it all came flooding back, but the biggest emotion of all was: PURE GRATITUDE! It took my breath away to look at her big girl smile, holding my hand, sitting in that memorable spot, and realize: THANK YOU Lord- she is sitting here. I would have never dreamed that she would be sitting right there smiling at me! I am so grateful to God for the time he has given us! THANK YOU GOD!
When the nurses came in, they had 2 shots they worked it down to. They asked me to “pin” her down on the bed or on my lap, she said “NO! I am a BIG girl! Mommy just hold my hand!” I asked them to let me try sitting next to her and hold both her hands gently (so she doesn’t realize that I’m keeping her from hitting the shots away) They allowed us to do it, they did the job, she watched them do it, then looked up at me when it was over and said “See mommy, I’m a big girl, I dont’ cry!” WOW! I was so proud of her! What a big girl!
*photo by Cindy Creech
On a side note, I don’t question her to see how much she remembers or knows, but certain things are coming out…
I catch her “pretending” to cut her hair off with toys. I say “no, don’t do that” She says: “I need to go to the hospital, so they can cut off all my hair!“ She’s seen pictures, with hair then at the hospital without hair, so I guess it makes sense.
She started talking about going to the hospital again, I say “That’s right, in a couple of weeks, we go see our friends again” I asked her if she knew “Paula” (she’s the generous, wonderful woman at the surgery desk, who checks people in and spoils Alexis with lots of furry friends)
Alexis said “Paula checks me in at the hospital, Kristen gives me the noodle (IV)” WOW! She blows me away. This is our life and on Feb 17th, she’ll get a noodle, and on the 18th, lots of scans while napping.
Please pray for those appointments and thank you for reading and praying for our family!
I posted a new youtube video: now i have to give a disclaimer first: please watch the whole thing, please don’t judge me as a parent for videoing my kids arguing, please ignore the nose-pick…just watch Alexis’s little personality explode and watch Austin look so “sweet” with a “I’m not doing anything” look. Thank you in advance if you watch it:
